For as little as I’ve sat down to write lately, I think about you all the time. Once in a while I wonder “does it even matter?” and then some kind words were shared with me today– that story may be another blog post in the future!– that my blog had touched her. So yes- to 2 of you (that Mom and MY Mom), it matters 🙂
It feels as if a whirlwind is swirling around in my brain! Decision fatigue, over-scheduling…Getting ready for Good Friday and Easter at work, husband traveled and of course while he was gone I got sick… Wonky schedules for Kai and the start of soccer season (Go Hawks!) with practices and games…we ‘re just out of sync. But I know it’s just a phase that’s going to pass shortly. A consistent schedule will always be a struggle for me. And add to it, I have T.P.A.D. Yup. That’s right…there’s FINALLY a diagnosis that makes sense for me!
Thanks to ‘Dr Nony’, the creator of http://www.ASlobComeClean.com a kindred spirit who puts how we deal with “mess” and cleaning into words for me, I now know a major piece of what holds me back is TPAD. I feel like my whole life my mom has asked me “what’s wrong with you? You can’t do THAT much in that amount of time” or I can’t for the life of me keep straight how much time has passed between events, life stages, meetings, cleaning, etc. Yikes. BUT, their’s comfort in numbers and I’m not alone. If you find yourself relating to me as you read, you may want to check out Nony (Dana is her real name). I think you’ll enjoy her as much as I have!
For today, I just want to share a little inspiration. In the middle of the chaos…really that’s my life not just a play on the name of this blog!!… God is showing me how I’m adored. How I matter to him…and how when I seek him out, he answers in ways I can’t imagine.
Time is ticking– my weeks of marbles are growing slim with Kai in my home. This makes me nervous and each morning (& often throughout the day) I pray for renewed calm and peace regarding this decision. I’ve spent the last few days thinking of ways to be intentional in this time. Guide her, make sure she hears truth about herself and life….I keep meaning to check in with Moms who have sent kids off to college… it’s pretty similar I think. We binged a few episodes of The Voice while I was sick and although we got behind on a few other things, I wouldn’t trade that time for anything. I love that kid!
Colt is making progress in his therapy. We still have a journey ahead but this past week in particular he’s brought SO MUCH laughter to my days. (You can check out some of these moments on my Instagram page- mandyhenry31). I can’t forget the dream I had of the little boy Kelly and I would have…. I know he’s that little boy. He may not be able to sit still for prolonged periods of time— or ANY some days– but he’s bursting with personality and really does round out our home.
Life may not fit in a pretty little box, the scrapbook pages of this phase may be stuck together and hard to follow along through, but it’s my #AdoredChaos. Each day, if I look, there is JOY to be found. From the smile on someone else’s face, dancing in our undies or with pots on our heads in the kitchen, or sharing the couch with a girl going through the Mean Middle School years, JOY is all around if we just look for it.
This weekend is a time to remember and reflect on the Extreme Sacrifice Jesus made to clear our slates. We can live free with hope of a future in relationship with him. Nothing gets sweeter than that! Happy Resurrection Day!